Exhaustion

I’ve fought, and fought, and fought,

Exhaustion, never-ending, and for naught,

with its ups and downs,

and even cliches abound,

in the end, destruction comes,

again and again, time to rebuild,

I forgot the conundrums,

and the sadness killed,

I’ve made my way all the way up,

But now I’ve blown up, and I’m tumbling down,

The end nears, depression takes the crown,

But losing, to an odd degree,

Leaves me with a sigh of relief.


Heart’s Demands

I think about the odds and risks
In response I just utter “tsk”
Though my ignorance is bliss
I think I understand the gist
I may have no belief in fate
Or even God for heaven’s sake
But yet in her I place my faith
Neither of us may be perfect
We may speak our own dialect
But when I think and I reflect
We are better with each other
Than I can be with another
All it took for me was a glance
She’s definitely worth a chance
So I’m falling into a trance
I’ll drop my life out of my hands
And succumb to my heart’s demands.


Attention

I told you that you were cute
You said you have better attributes

I told you that you were sweet
You said to me that is pretty neat

I said you’re incredible
You said that you appreciate it

I said you’re special to me
You said that is really sweet of me

I gave you my attention
You said from me you still wanted more

I want attention too
Can I ever expect that from you?


“Impossible”

Weighing in at two-thirty
Hell, I was really heavy
Now, I’m down to one-eighty
-Shit, now it’s, one-eighty, —five
Trying to juggle my life,
and my, T.I.-eighty-nine
Daddy thought I was lying
When I told him that, I ran
“Two miles in nineteen? You can’t!”
He told me “Impossible!”
I thought I’m unstoppable!
However improbable
I gave it my everything
Until the birds wouldn’t sing
And damn straight, I proved him wrong
Eighteen-thirty! I am king
I felt like I was King —-Kong
Figured it out -took too long
I’m driven when I’m angry,
So hope I’m never happy!


Interesting games,

My heart wants to play…

Meddling in the flames,

My mind has no say…


Crushed

I wish that there was something more that I could do
Pity was not the reason that I fell for you
Long before all your pain
Long before what caused you so much disdain
The first time I saw you
I crushed, even though I didn’t know who
I must have been a fool
But I’m being honest; this is just the truth
It’s that your personality is huge     
and you’re amazing in every way 
if only I could just take you away,   
Give you all the money; give you all the cars     
I’d do anything to fly you to Mars     
It’s already red with our love; it’s art
Cold, but you’ll melt it away like you did to me with your heart
But everything is unstable and falling apart
There’s so much I want with you, but I don’t know where to start  
My friend says to never plant a rotten tomato
But if I do will I be able to help it grow?
The situation may not be perfect  
But I know that you are    
Don’t think about it; no time to reflect
Just fall into my arms.  


Never Ends

So she seems really sweet
So hot I feel the heat

So hot she makes me melt
So as I’ve never felt

So she’s all nice to me
So pretty smiles can be

So she has those deep eyes
So deep I catch no lies

So I must be in love
So peaceful like a dove

So what she’s not perfect
So I do her subjects

So better together
So light like a feather

So when alone she’s flawed
So I get us a yacht

So perfect a couple
So her lips are supple

So ran away just us
So real it must be lust

So I gave her a ring
So she said not a thing

So happy tears of joy
So I was just a boy

So now I am a man
So fearless never ran

So we argue and vent
So true love never ends.


Where I Draw the Line

I see her on the dance floor,

Looks easy, I’ll give a try,

All over me, fucking whore,

Red hair and eyes, she’s so high,

Not for me but I want more,

Rubbing up against her thigh,

Heart’s pumping hard in my core,

She loves it so much, she’s mine,

Work her out so she’ll be sore,

Doesn’t matter if she’s fine,

She’s not my girl, she’s all yours,

No kiss or poetic rhyme,

In the club she sweats her pores,

And that’s where I draw the line.


Perfect

I’m just outsmarted;
She’s so cold-hearted;
I’m her first martyr.
She’s too smart for me.
Simply beautiful;
She’s Aphrodite.
But I’m bountiful,
She manipulates,
I articulate.
But I fail again.
Let me paraphrase:
I just fell again.
Shall I ever raise?
Another woman:
She’s better than I
Is that an omen?
I should fortify
All my emotions
Before I get screwed
Shot down, black and blue.
She keeps me in check.
She’s so different:
No kiss, not a peck
She knows what I meant
With her I’m peaceful
But she’s violent
For her I’m thankful
But she’s ungrateful
I’m always faithful
And she’s just hateful
Yet when I reflect,
I think she’s perfect.


Six

These syllables, of six
Represent Hell, on Earth
The criminals, unfixed
The God repelled, lost first
Not that he helped, just cursed
So here’s to sin, I flirt
Enough with hymns, they hurt
the homosexuals,
the non-believing skulls.
To those, with reasoning
To close, the false meaning
The truth is, there is none
Despite our stupid grunt
There is no set purpose
As of yet to surface
Your God is just a lie
Universe, mystifies
But it is not divine
Religion is a weed
It’s just another vine
In kids, you plant the seed
They listen, and take heed
Your racism, your creed
Ingrained, in the children
Time for us to be men
Stand up to our problem
Rid us of prejudice
There’s too many to list
At all of you I hiss
It is just ignorance
And true, it may be bliss
But think it’s right to piss
On those who disagree
It’s all just wrong, you see?


Ongoing

Forcing myself to write
to keep it ongoing
in fear of losing flight
to weep my murdering
in gear, to stay, I try
a mere, small hate, to lie
Career, past fate, behind
Small things that count, in life
Take it and mount, despite
All that you shout, your strife.


Perplexing

There’s something missing.
Done with this bliss thing.
The popular sing
ignorance fling.
Slow with a low ping;
I’m up and coming
with understanding
of life perplexing.
To me, I am king.


A Decision

Finally met someone worth it,
I never thought she would surface,
Friends are forever,
but relationships are whenever,
So I must make a decision
At the risk of a collision
Should I take a chance?
I’ll just continue to rant.


Back Home

Glad to be back home;
Away from parents.
Now I’ve truly flown.
Only a menace,
could take this away.
Humans hold the love;
Books fill us with hate.
I’m in an influx:
I’ve opened your gates,
but you want me hushed!
If the only truth
is an “I don’t know,”
don’t tell me what soothes,
don’t you go that low.
You fed me the dead,
I ate like a crow.
Now I have a head,
I’m hungry for more.
But not for the lies,
For the truth and gore!
Enough with false cries,
I’ll resist your lure.